I haven’t written a blog in a while but today was bad…kinda… 

Well recently I’ve noticed that not a lot of people want to know me. People don’t reply to my messages, they reply to other people but not me? Why? What the fuck man… it’s not just 1 or 2 people that don’t want to talk to me, it’s everyone who I considered my ‘friend’? So wtf???

And on top of that, some… fucking lads GRRR I HATE THEM SO MUCH!! 

I hate lads so fucking much… all of them, laugh at me, and then they think I don’t notice? Like seriously.

And I’m trying so hard to change myself physically lol. But I just feel like… no matter how nice I am, no matter how much respect I show to other people, I’m just gonna be kicked down… all cause of my image dude

And I know I’m nothing pretty to look at but fuck. I would never laugh at someone…ehhh

I’m feeling really unmotivated right now, like I don’t even want to go to tafe anymore. I just don’t want to bother if I’m just gonna get laughed at and shit. I just want people to treat me like an actual human instead of some … gyah nevermind… 

Always hated just never aware ~ true saying… 

Oh well life goes on, I bet they’re gonna be richer than me in the future too, so when people say “karma will happen!!” IT NEVER DOES, and it if does it’s to ME, but the other way around cause I’m rarely mean to people. So I just get a lot of shit

OGMGMGMOGMOGMG I know I sound like I complain nonstop but meh I just feel like

nothing.